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By Terry Petla
This week, I'm simply thinking out loud. It's not the generic doctrine of "you should.." or "we talk about.." Just ride along with me if you're interested in where this is headed. 

I'm thinking a lot about self righteousness. About friendships and how they are perceived lately. About sex and how transactional it is. About winning arguments vs maintaining relationships. About intimacy. About bridges that are being run on disrespect. About narrow mindedness. And about how obligated we are to take care of ourselves (f*ck whoever wants more than we are willing to give)

I had an episode earlier this week. I called this "friend" of mine that I go way back with to pick me up if he could because;
1. My hands were kind of tied
2. It'd have been nice to catch up while we were at it. We honestly had some issues to comb through for courtesy's sake. 
It was nice of him to consider but it was on a condition; he takes me somewhere private. In his defense, every time he sees me he gets lewd thoughts. And he wanted to act on them. Keep in mind that this is a man I haven't been in touch with for a couple of months. Also, he had dumped it on me not too long ago that he was getting married. Given our history, it was only fair that I got more than just that headline.. it was one of the conversations we were supposed to have among others. And you want to take me somewhere private? What do y'all take sex for? On a lighter note, I realize I'm making a grave mistake here. I shouldn't be disclosing what it takes to ahem ahem (clears my throat and gathers imaginary papers to get back to business.) Long story short, he didn't pick me up because I don't have it in me to tolerate some people's unmitigated audacity. He said he was hurt because I "only call him when I need help" and that my problem has always been that I think I'm right all the time. Am I? Do I really think that? Or are you saying all that because you didn't have your way with me? 

You know it's ill advice to be certain. It's good to doubt the things you think you already know. That exchange with him has me thinking about how I'm possibly missing out on amazing ways of doing life because I'm "right all the time." Better ways of cooking perhaps or the several other ways you can show someone you care about them. Better genres of books or series. Better ways of having conversations. Amazing topics to read and discover. Amazing people I probably overlook because I have a certain type I go for. Maybe there's even magic in the small talk I hate so much. My mind is on a roll. 

Tell me about all the things I possibly could be missing out on. Show me (and get me to experience) all the various ways there are to love and care about things, spaces and people. Literally take me by the hand and show me around your little world, I promise I'll take it all in and neglect nothing. Pretty please. 

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  1. AnonymousAugust 8, 2025 at 9:43 AM

    Gurrllllll....i ain't in a relationship and shit...but I feel like small talk with your significant other is really cute..like you both seated at home and then he asks what your favorite type of nails is or hair...I think small talk actually brings pipo closer you should try it

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